I’ve thought from time to time that if I were someone else, I could find things in me to love. But I’m myself and I’ve never felt quite right with the idea of living on that plane. If I ever do build a home for myself it won’t be built out of reckless self-love, it’ll… Continue reading Stead
Tag: Writing
On living the dream
It's been two years since I started documenting my job hunt and my life at home, desperately trying to become a writer in London. The gag is I actually became a writer in London. Granted, I'm making a living writing about the legal industry — something which (and I'm not scared of my boss reading… Continue reading On living the dream
On Manhattan Beach by Jennifer Egan
Following 2010’s A Visit from the Goon Squad, Manhattan Beach (2017) is a far cry from the time-hopping experimental prose anyone might have expected. It’s a “traditional” historical novel set in Depression era/World War II New York and centred on the Navy Yards. Egan’s melancholic, Noir-esque drama is elegiac and affirmative — which was also true… Continue reading On Manhattan Beach by Jennifer Egan
Hypomnêsis
“This way through night’s magic corridors where our beloved come back to us alive, right here and with no blood tax at the border.” —Hélène Cixous, Dream I Tell You "I have spread my dreams under your feet; Tread softly because you tread on my dreams." —W. B. Yeats, 'The Cloths of Heaven' Picture it, a… Continue reading Hypomnêsis
Hurry up please, it’s time
We spoke again and again, I tried to sleep it off but then, all of a sudden, it had been five days. When I was high I felt euphoria like I had never felt before, and I thought about how I wasn’t thinking of you. You told me about how you had finally realised that… Continue reading Hurry up please, it’s time
April Foolishness
This past week I've been on work experience at an advertising firm in London. And I've been doing a really good job! I got off to a sniffly start on account of getting a cold at the worst possible moment and felt very Emily Blunt in The Devil Wears Prada only with less Valentino and… Continue reading April Foolishness
On The Archers (Sort of)
I'm still unemployed! I've uploaded a million CV's online and applied for jobs pretty much everywhere from China to Dubai. I've even (mostly) overcome my fear of escalators as a result of spending some time in London, which has been wonderfully liberating. I'm trying to make the most of my "time off" by engaging with the… Continue reading On The Archers (Sort of)
On rejection and trying to be Carrie Bradshaw
I got my first rejection last week! It followed a disastrous interview, but at least I can now cross digital media salesperson off my list of potential career paths. This wasn't much of a surprise considering I never technically learned what a spreadsheet is for [if you're considering hiring me and are reading this I am very… Continue reading On rejection and trying to be Carrie Bradshaw
October/Panther
I wrote these pieces in my second year of university in Brighton (2014). They were published (sort of) in the short fiction anthology that year. Last night someone told me I needed a reality check, and it made me miss this time a lot, which is ironic because at the time I was writing about… Continue reading October/Panther
Letters for Rent 