“We never reach a goal hoped for. But we can reach a goal unhoped for. At times this can hold good surprises for me.” Hélène Cixous, Writing Blind I am trying to make something good here. I am doing it at the expense of the thing. Sometimes I forget. I wonder what could have been… Continue reading Hot room
Tag: mental health
Resort
“Every story tells of a ghost. At the end, the centre of a story is a Black Hole, but it isn’t black, and it isn’t dark. In the best case, it might gleam.” Judith Hermann, We Would Have Told Each Other Everything What I will say is this: spring always comes. That is not what… Continue reading Resort
With love on a birthday
"It is said that mourning, by its gradual labour, slowly erases pain; I could not, I cannot believe this; because for me, Time eliminates the emotion of loss (I do not weep), that is all. For the rest, everything has remained motionless. For what I have lost is not a Figure (the Mother), but a… Continue reading With love on a birthday
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On living the dream
It's been two years since I started documenting my job hunt and my life at home, desperately trying to become a writer in London. The gag is I actually became a writer in London. Granted, I'm making a living writing about the legal industry — something which (and I'm not scared of my boss reading… Continue reading On living the dream
On The Archers (Sort of)
I'm still unemployed! I've uploaded a million CV's online and applied for jobs pretty much everywhere from China to Dubai. I've even (mostly) overcome my fear of escalators as a result of spending some time in London, which has been wonderfully liberating. I'm trying to make the most of my "time off" by engaging with the… Continue reading On The Archers (Sort of)
On rejection and trying to be Carrie Bradshaw
I got my first rejection last week! It followed a disastrous interview, but at least I can now cross digital media salesperson off my list of potential career paths. This wasn't much of a surprise considering I never technically learned what a spreadsheet is for [if you're considering hiring me and are reading this I am very… Continue reading On rejection and trying to be Carrie Bradshaw
October/Panther
I wrote these pieces in my second year of university in Brighton (2014). They were published (sort of) in the short fiction anthology that year. Last night someone told me I needed a reality check, and it made me miss this time a lot, which is ironic because at the time I was writing about… Continue reading October/Panther
On being allergic to vitamin B, and other things I’ve learnt this week
This week I've been mostly in solitary confinement because I had a severe allergic reaction to vitamin B — who knew, right?— and, having been informed that I looked "medieval" (thanks dad), I decided to cloister myself away and wait for it to pass. It's been a productive week, and it got me thinking about… Continue reading On being allergic to vitamin B, and other things I’ve learnt this week
Letters for Rent 